I need more tea

I have recently come to the conclusion that I am desperately unhappy. Sitting at my desk surrounded by damp tissues and mug after mug of tea I have come to the conclusion that I am not where I want to be in life at all.

Where I would like to be in life is working in a bakery back in England, working towards one day having my own cupcake shop. Where I actually am is a soulless city in China struggling for a degree I don't want with my entire family's expectations weighing me down.

It's got to the point where the only thing keeping me out here is the fact that if I move back home, drop out and so forth, is that it will screw up my parents holiday plans for next year... and I get the feeling that that should not be the only thing keeping me going. I shouldn't be sitting here in what the years above us have called the best year of uni with a page constantly open on my computer telling me when the next flight out of Shanghai to Heathrow is.

This isn't me being home sick, I don't get home sick apart from when I get sick of being at home, this is me realising my life is going in a direction I really don't want it to go in.

Trolling or Some Bizarre Form of Performance Art

Sym had gone out to drink so Jirair and I decided to be cruel, as fun as it was I do get the feeling that Sym is plotting our demise at this very moment...

[00:18:56] Jirair: Sym?

[00:19:01] Thais: just out of interest

[00:19:33] Jirair: becuase we were wondering aloud

[00:19:52] Thais: about certain aspects of certain things

[00:20:24] Jirair: involving some personal matters

[00:20:42] Thais: involving you and Kit

[00:21:18] Jirair: and the nature of your relationship

[00:21:38] Thais: you know, the bit with the riding crop and whatnot

[00:22:57] Jirair: the asymetric distribution of initative stuff

[00:23:24 | Edited 00:23:43] Thais: more simply put; the D/s element

[00:27:42] Jirair: you see since I noticed you were short a few flatmates, and well there is a corrolation with some data of an internet format

[00:29:42 | Edited 00:29:57] Thais: a very good source of infomation, as we all know that fic does not lie and only exists to better the world

[00:32:36] Jirair: Well basically we wanted to know. Has you sexual relationship ever included hints, themes, elements, aspects or evidence of cannabalism?

[00:33:38 | Edited 00:34:31] Thais: This can of course involve, but not be limited to, any non-accidental form of bloodplay etc

[3:08:36 AM] *** Call ended, duration 7:56:36 ***

[3:13:20 AM] Sym: .....

[3:14:01 AM] Sym: what is this

[3:14:04 AM] Sym: I don't even