Don't ever give up. Just remember that its your life and you can choose to live it how you like. Your parents will always love you even if you do choose to tell them. And if they don't then remember that your friends are here for you. We all love you with all our hearts, and will always help you, through thick and thin.
If you read through my blogs again and read the one's about when i was unmanned by lottie, it may help. We need to sit down and talk, watch a movie. Soon, when your back from devon and im back from Kos, and we can talk about it, and if you need hugs and shoulders, i'm here for you.
This was writen while in a pit of self-loathing and posted in a drunken stupor, so is rather hyperbolic about the emotions which I spend an awful amount of time trying to ignor. xxx
Heyy (this is Ellie btw) , firstly it's not egotistical, you never talk about your feelings so you're definitely allowed to do this without feeling egotistical. And you don't need to spare people, you have a right for your friends to listen:) Firstly, I don't you're scared but you're parents aren't 'meant' to love you unconditionally, they do, and being yourself will not change that. In fact because they love you they would probably hate the idea of you having to hide your true self from them. Your heart is not ruined, it's fully intact which means that when you can break out of the mask it'll be there ready to be put to use! Maybe you can't wait for the mask to crack though. Maybe you have to force it, even though you're scared. The only way of escaping fear is to be stronger than it, and you are! This blog shows that you want to breakthrough, you have the will! Even though it's harder I think emerging in your true form is necessary to be fulfilled, and you have to be fulfilled to be happy. We all love you whatever you are, and so do your parents. The real you is fine, don't reject yourself and don't worry that you'll be rejected by others. Don't ever feel apologetic for who you really are and don't feel like you don't have a right to talk about that! Once you let your parents see who you are, you'll know that they would never stop loving you, and the same for friends! You don't need to ignore your emotions or hate yourself, there's nothing to hate!
I'm here whenever you need to talk, and please don't think you're being self indulgent because you're not! Love youxxx Ellie
Don't ever give up. Just remember that its your life and you can choose to live it how you like. Your parents will always love you even if you do choose to tell them. And if they don't then remember that your friends are here for you. We all love you with all our hearts, and will always help you, through thick and thin.
ReplyDeleteIf you read through my blogs again and read the one's about when i was unmanned by lottie, it may help. We need to sit down and talk, watch a movie. Soon, when your back from devon and im back from Kos, and we can talk about it, and if you need hugs and shoulders, i'm here for you.
I love you, call me
xxxx
This was writen while in a pit of self-loathing and posted in a drunken stupor, so is rather hyperbolic about the emotions which I spend an awful amount of time trying to ignor.
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Heyy (this is Ellie btw) , firstly it's not egotistical, you never talk about your feelings so you're definitely allowed to do this without feeling egotistical. And you don't need to spare people, you have a right for your friends to listen:)
ReplyDeleteFirstly, I don't you're scared but you're parents aren't 'meant' to love you unconditionally, they do, and being yourself will not change that. In fact because they love you they would probably hate the idea of you having to hide your true self from them.
Your heart is not ruined, it's fully intact which means that when you can break out of the mask it'll be there ready to be put to use! Maybe you can't wait for the mask to crack though. Maybe you have to force it, even though you're scared. The only way of escaping fear is to be stronger than it, and you are! This blog shows that you want to breakthrough, you have the will! Even though it's harder I think emerging in your true form is necessary to be fulfilled, and you have to be fulfilled to be happy. We all love you whatever you are, and so do your parents. The real you is fine, don't reject yourself and don't worry that you'll be rejected by others. Don't ever feel apologetic for who you really are and don't feel like you don't have a right to talk about that! Once you let your parents see who you are, you'll know that they would never stop loving you, and the same for friends! You don't need to ignore your emotions or hate yourself, there's nothing to hate!
I'm here whenever you need to talk, and please don't think you're being self indulgent because you're not!
Love youxxx
Ellie